Disapointment

For some reason I really had my hopes up that the boyfriend was going to ask me to marry him this summer. I had my reasons - like for example, there has been a few times when he has said to me that he had said to his friends and family that if he had the money he would have asked me to marry him by now, and also the fact that I love him to bits and hoped thats what he wanted. Well, now I know he has plenty of money, so I started getting my hopes up, but while we were on holiday he mentioned that he didnt think it was right to propose to a girl while she was pregnent (he was talking about one of his friends)... So I guess that means he has no intention of proposing to me in the next 4 months . I know Im stupid as I shouldnt have hoped it was going to happen... But like I say, I love him to bits and getting engaged would just make things perfect. I wouldnt want to get married while I was pregnant but I would have liked to start planning it for next year. I always said I wanted to get married when I was 23... So thats now not going to happen. And also means it will be longer before I get to share the same family name with my son or daughter.

I have alot to be happy about though.... I really think I am the luckiest person alive to be with him... I honestly love him more than anything and couldnt imagine loving anyone as much as I love him. We have been together 2 years now (as of yesterday) and we are having a baby together