Aghhh Im DREADING the boyfriend going away with the lads on holiday this year. He hasnt booked it yet but he has said that he is going. I have never been with anyone who has been away on holiday without me while I was with them. Im going to spend the whole week upset... missing him and crapping myself about what he is getting up to. I do trust him... But I am still going to be sooooo jealous thinking even that he is out on holiday and talking to loads of girls. And I know he cheated on his ex while he was on holiday... And I know so so so many people who have cheated on their other halfs on holiday... And ALL of his friends have at some point... And the lad he is going with his single and a complete male slag when it comes to woman appariently. Its Tom actually. I am going to go away with the girls... Ive never been away on a girls holiday before... But maybe if I go I will realise that its not too bad and everyone doesnt just spend the whole holiday sleeping around and kissing randoms. Either that or it will just scare me more? I would NEVER EVER cheat on him though... I love him more than anything and I couldnt even imagine even kissing someone else. I bet I end up missing him loads even when Im away on holiday though... That would suck. Am I stupid for worrying? Aghh... Ive even been having nightmares about it :(

I sometimes think about talking about it with him but Ive tried before and he just ended up upsetting me - pretty much saying I should trust him etc. Aghh I dont like it :(